i always had a feeling
of not fitting in

not being grander
than others
if anything
i always felt rather small
like the spider
on the wall
or perhaps
the flea
that no one could see

yes
i would easily
be called the wall flower
though i am so allergic
to blooms
therefore i spent years
hiding in my room
it was my womb
of life
i got to pick and choose
who entered
and who i gave the boot to

then you struck my fancy
and i used my best
behavior
to seduce you
into my womb
to find the same comfort
i do

and wishing and waiting
you finally stated
darling
i do

my spirit grew
larger than life